So I said that CB's performance is one of my favorite from this night. Well the other one that I really liked was the Prince Tribute take a look.
The first two were eh, but Alicia Killed it! And did yous ee Prince look over to Swizz Beatz like, what is she doing. You better watch her. And if you check during Patti's number, Prince looks like he's going to tear up!
Monday, June 28, 2010
BET Music Awards 2010
So last night was the 2010 BET Music Awards, I don't generally talk about award shows because for the most part the sort of fail. But overall, this was one of the best ones that I have seen. Withe memorable performances, and a great host in Queen Latifah herself! It was well played.
One of my favorite performances has to go to none other than Chris Brown. He was introduced by Jermain Jackson in a roundabout way. Jermaine comes out on stage and talks about what a trying year this has been. Remember we just had the year anniversary of MJ's death on June 25th. So he talks about the trying year, he reminds us of Janet's speech at last year's BET Awards and then he basically give BET a moment to redeem themselves by saying this is the tribute the is much deserved and long over due. Immediately I knew CB was going to be the performer. He is the closest thing to MJ in his dancing ability etc. And I sort of cheated- his Twitter feed read " I am shitting a brick right now!" moments before he went on.
Needless to say, his performance was powerful all the way through. Now I know that the papers and the blogs are probably lit up with, is it appropriate, was it necessary etc. Let's be honest, BET dropped the ball last year and in this battle of who is the best MJ imitator, hands down it is Chris Brown. I mean really! Watch the video below and tell me he doesn't kill the MJ talent contest.
Now the appropriateness is on two levels, Chris Brown has been out of the limelight due to his less than admirable anger issues against Rhianna. Do I think what he has done should be taken lightly. No, but I think that he was tried in a court and served a punishment that was given to him. And he will have to live with what he did for the rest of his life, so he has a life sentence. But everyone deserves a chance to be redeemed. And there are people out there, my friends included, who feel that Chris Brown owes the fans an apology. To be honest, I don't think he does. I think too often we get involved in celebrities lives and we get to wrapped up in the people that they are that we forget that they are human. And if it was us that made a mistake, we would want to be able to redeem ourselves in our own way and on our own time. He owes no one, but himself, Rhianna and God an apology for the mistakes that he made. He knows he let the fans down, but that is his burdent o bear not mine to hang over him every time he goes out.
So here is my theory. CB gave the performance of his life last night. His idol is gone. And yes I know we all talk about idols, MJ was mine. I cry every time I am reminded that his genius is no longer with us. But CB since he has been out has only paid respect to MJ. His 18th birthday was a tribute to MJ, he does MJ performances and tributes in his concerts and at parties. So after a hectic year, he is able to give MJ the tribute that is long overdue (for BET) and also in a way shed his own dead weight. What better song to have him close the performance out with than "Man in the Mirror," because we all have to look inside ourselves and find our own faults and fix them before we can judge others and ask them to fix themselves. So I think this song did CB some justice- yes he broke down. Wouldn't you, a person that you respected is gone, and you weren't able to give him the proper tribute you wanted because you were going through your own things and finally when you are able it is overwhelming. I think MJ would be proud of that moment. MJ never wanted to stifle anyone from living to their potential. He laughed and enjoyed the show when people wanted "to be like him."
I give it to Chris Brown to get out there and do his best. I would have liked to see Jermain come out and help CB finish the song, that to me would have been fitting, but the crowd did assist CB and I guess in a way that is what MJ would have wanted, his fans remembering his legacy in that way.
I talk about it all the time, change starts with you. Chris Brown has a long way to go before I think the rest of the world will fully accept him and welcome him back into the fold. But for me, I am happy to see him returning. I just wish people would be a little more receiving. But let this also be a lesson. Change is also knowing when not to fall down a certain path, so to the young men who might read this blog, know your own strength, know your anger limits and learn to walk away!
One of my favorite performances has to go to none other than Chris Brown. He was introduced by Jermain Jackson in a roundabout way. Jermaine comes out on stage and talks about what a trying year this has been. Remember we just had the year anniversary of MJ's death on June 25th. So he talks about the trying year, he reminds us of Janet's speech at last year's BET Awards and then he basically give BET a moment to redeem themselves by saying this is the tribute the is much deserved and long over due. Immediately I knew CB was going to be the performer. He is the closest thing to MJ in his dancing ability etc. And I sort of cheated- his Twitter feed read " I am shitting a brick right now!" moments before he went on.
Needless to say, his performance was powerful all the way through. Now I know that the papers and the blogs are probably lit up with, is it appropriate, was it necessary etc. Let's be honest, BET dropped the ball last year and in this battle of who is the best MJ imitator, hands down it is Chris Brown. I mean really! Watch the video below and tell me he doesn't kill the MJ talent contest.
Now the appropriateness is on two levels, Chris Brown has been out of the limelight due to his less than admirable anger issues against Rhianna. Do I think what he has done should be taken lightly. No, but I think that he was tried in a court and served a punishment that was given to him. And he will have to live with what he did for the rest of his life, so he has a life sentence. But everyone deserves a chance to be redeemed. And there are people out there, my friends included, who feel that Chris Brown owes the fans an apology. To be honest, I don't think he does. I think too often we get involved in celebrities lives and we get to wrapped up in the people that they are that we forget that they are human. And if it was us that made a mistake, we would want to be able to redeem ourselves in our own way and on our own time. He owes no one, but himself, Rhianna and God an apology for the mistakes that he made. He knows he let the fans down, but that is his burdent o bear not mine to hang over him every time he goes out.
So here is my theory. CB gave the performance of his life last night. His idol is gone. And yes I know we all talk about idols, MJ was mine. I cry every time I am reminded that his genius is no longer with us. But CB since he has been out has only paid respect to MJ. His 18th birthday was a tribute to MJ, he does MJ performances and tributes in his concerts and at parties. So after a hectic year, he is able to give MJ the tribute that is long overdue (for BET) and also in a way shed his own dead weight. What better song to have him close the performance out with than "Man in the Mirror," because we all have to look inside ourselves and find our own faults and fix them before we can judge others and ask them to fix themselves. So I think this song did CB some justice- yes he broke down. Wouldn't you, a person that you respected is gone, and you weren't able to give him the proper tribute you wanted because you were going through your own things and finally when you are able it is overwhelming. I think MJ would be proud of that moment. MJ never wanted to stifle anyone from living to their potential. He laughed and enjoyed the show when people wanted "to be like him."
I give it to Chris Brown to get out there and do his best. I would have liked to see Jermain come out and help CB finish the song, that to me would have been fitting, but the crowd did assist CB and I guess in a way that is what MJ would have wanted, his fans remembering his legacy in that way.
I talk about it all the time, change starts with you. Chris Brown has a long way to go before I think the rest of the world will fully accept him and welcome him back into the fold. But for me, I am happy to see him returning. I just wish people would be a little more receiving. But let this also be a lesson. Change is also knowing when not to fall down a certain path, so to the young men who might read this blog, know your own strength, know your anger limits and learn to walk away!
Friday, June 25, 2010
MJ Memorial Service
This was one of my favorite performances done at the MJ Memorial. I love this because John Mayer, let MJ live through this song. I have my thoughts that John Mayer was supposed to actually sing this song. You can tell when he gets ready to walk up to the mic and then he decides not to and you see him move to the right of the mic and then finally to the left. And he let's his guitar and our memories of this song do the rest. I think it was the best way to honor MJ, and it gives me chills, because I can definitely hear MJ singing through this song.
A Year Later and you are still the Greatest of ALL TIME!!!
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A year ago today, ultimately and in my opinion the GREATEST Artist to ever grace this earth passed away. I was working with AU's New Student Orientation program, when I received a text message stating that he had died. And at the time my coworkers knew that I was a big fan and kept sending text messages to let me know the news. I like many were just destroyed. This was a rough day as it was, my nieces (twins) were born on this day 2 years ago and we lost one of them a before her first month. Alexa Grace will always be a big part of our family, even though she was with us for a few short weeks, she had more love than anyone could have asked for. So I was already emotional from this day knowing what it meant to have lost someone in my family as well.
And I mean it's hard to explain, I never met MJ, but he was a big part of my family and my childhood. My Saturday mornings were spent listening to my dad's MJ vinyls as we cleaned the house. We would watch MJ Music Videos that my dad had recorded, we would wait until the MTV Premieres for MJ's movie like music videos. I mean my life straight down to my room was MJ. I had posters of MJ, one in particular was a puzzle with MJ and Bubbles that my parents had framed to hang in my room. My aunt one Christmas bought my a red leather vest so I could rock out like MJ. My cousin and I would have singing contests to various MJ songs and try to get my father to judge who was the better singer (HILARIOUS!) I sang MJ songs in talent shows and my best friend and I would have dance contests in her living room to MJ songs sliding up and down her coffee table.
Oh man those were the days. Up until his death my embarrassing story with my Orientation Students was MJ related. My first concert, that I remember was an MJ concert. I was wearing this black skirt and we weren't really far from the stage at all. Anyways, I really had to go to the bathroom. Like really bad! But the intro to Thriller came on and I wanted to see the performance. I mean as a kid I freaked out watching the music video. I used to hide behind a wall, those Saturday mornings and peer around the corner to see the video for fear that I would get to scared. Anyways, the whole arena when pitch dark and the intro starts and then all of a sudden this wolf head takes center stage, well needless to say that was enough for me. I lost it literally- let's just say I didn't have to go to the bathroom to actually use the bathroom after that one. Thankfully my mother brought a change of clothes and I was able to change, but it was crazy. I think that night I bought another poster to add to my collection. Now I have no idea where these videos, or posters are. During the divorce, it wasn't just my life that got screwed up, but my memories and my dreams(again, a story for another time).
I read MJ's book by the time I was 10. I had my own copy (also lost in the divorce) I was lucky enough to buy a copy after they re-released the book after his death. Anyways, I listen to his music and I miss the artist. He had a great heart, one of the best humanitarians I have ever learned about. I just think so much of who he was was misunderstood. And people wanted to see him destroyed- and sadly I think it broke him.
I saw the documentary of what was to be his greatest concert This is it! twice in the theater. Each time I cried like a baby. My dad and I had plans to go when the tour got to the U.S. I was so excited when I heard that MJ was preparing this concert. My one wish was that he would have been able to live just a little longer, to just perform one night on that stage. This is it the documentary only gives you glimpses of his musical genius, I have to tell you watching that and knowing how great an artist he really is- ARTISTS of this day and age need to be scared!!! He was about to do something so amazing!
Well MJ <3 I hope now that you are able to have your Peace. We miss you and we love you still.
As I close I want to dedicate this song to MJ and to my little angel Alexa Grace and all the other ones that have "Gone too Soon"
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Name that tune...
Well sort of. I want to play a little Truth or dare, but really more all truths, lol. I have been in a little song kick this week and so I wanted to share some more songs and not so much go into detail about my life, but give you all a little bit more insight into the mind behind the beauty.. Lol
So let's go.
Truth: I want to get married. When? Idk. But someday eventually and when I get married, I want this song to play when I walk down the aisle. I know it's not traditional and my sister will probably say it's out of the question, but if I could do it I would do it. I want this song to play and I want to have a little dance number with my bridal party and I having a little walk of fun down the aisle. I mean weddings should be a celebration right?
Okay so maybe this won't be like when I walk down the aisle but maybe the bridal party can enter to this song and do a little dance.. Lol
Truth 2:
I am a HOPELESS romantic. Deep down I LOVE, love. I love the way movies make me feel with their dramatic stories about love and romance. I mean given I know that my relationship won't be like one in a movie- it will be BETTER! Ha! But I just can't wait to be in love, again, those fleeting moments are great, even after the heartache, the memories of the good times are great. So this one sort of speaks that love to me. There is no other way to say it. This song also played at my friends' (Marcel & Dot) wedding..
Truth 3:
I LOVE country! I grew up in Ohio, so I know what it is like to listen to some old school country on a random evening in the middle of nowhere. Even though this group isn't really old school I still love them.
Rascal Flatts, I'm going to post a few because well I like them:
and the best song, I think that truly takes on the romantic in me:
Truth 4:
Rap/Hip Hop is more or less where I find grounding. Well Hip Hop, is raw, real, cutthroat, angry and even soft at times. I think my love of Hip Hop is probably also one of the things that feed into my passion for social justice (check out my "Be The Change" blog for more details). This particular artist was one of the greatest minds, at least to me. Reading his poetry and watching his interviews, he was smart. His birthday was yesterday, he would have been 39.[I'm editing this piece today September 13, 2010, 14 years after he was killed] RIP 'Pac:
People always try to speculate on who will fill the void now that 'Pac and Big have died. Here is my thing, I love 'Pac- as a rapper he was a genius as a human being despite his "troubled" life, he was an amazing individual who had so much insight and had so much to offer, I just don't think the world was ready. So I have said this in other blogs that Eminem really filled a void for me when 'Pac died and well here is a song that I love of his, off of RECOVERY:
This is his love song to Hip Hop and I mean it's his release at the same time. I just ugh! If you haven't gotten into RECOVERY you need to get your act together..
* Sorry for the vulgarity, but I need something raw and real.
Alright so this is what I have for now, I'll add some more truths as I feel them out.
So let's go.
Truth: I want to get married. When? Idk. But someday eventually and when I get married, I want this song to play when I walk down the aisle. I know it's not traditional and my sister will probably say it's out of the question, but if I could do it I would do it. I want this song to play and I want to have a little dance number with my bridal party and I having a little walk of fun down the aisle. I mean weddings should be a celebration right?
Okay so maybe this won't be like when I walk down the aisle but maybe the bridal party can enter to this song and do a little dance.. Lol
Truth 2:
I am a HOPELESS romantic. Deep down I LOVE, love. I love the way movies make me feel with their dramatic stories about love and romance. I mean given I know that my relationship won't be like one in a movie- it will be BETTER! Ha! But I just can't wait to be in love, again, those fleeting moments are great, even after the heartache, the memories of the good times are great. So this one sort of speaks that love to me. There is no other way to say it. This song also played at my friends' (Marcel & Dot) wedding..
Truth 3:
I LOVE country! I grew up in Ohio, so I know what it is like to listen to some old school country on a random evening in the middle of nowhere. Even though this group isn't really old school I still love them.
Rascal Flatts, I'm going to post a few because well I like them:
and the best song, I think that truly takes on the romantic in me:
Truth 4:
Rap/Hip Hop is more or less where I find grounding. Well Hip Hop, is raw, real, cutthroat, angry and even soft at times. I think my love of Hip Hop is probably also one of the things that feed into my passion for social justice (check out my "Be The Change" blog for more details). This particular artist was one of the greatest minds, at least to me. Reading his poetry and watching his interviews, he was smart. His birthday was yesterday, he would have been 39.[I'm editing this piece today September 13, 2010, 14 years after he was killed] RIP 'Pac:
People always try to speculate on who will fill the void now that 'Pac and Big have died. Here is my thing, I love 'Pac- as a rapper he was a genius as a human being despite his "troubled" life, he was an amazing individual who had so much insight and had so much to offer, I just don't think the world was ready. So I have said this in other blogs that Eminem really filled a void for me when 'Pac died and well here is a song that I love of his, off of RECOVERY:
This is his love song to Hip Hop and I mean it's his release at the same time. I just ugh! If you haven't gotten into RECOVERY you need to get your act together..
* Sorry for the vulgarity, but I need something raw and real.
Alright so this is what I have for now, I'll add some more truths as I feel them out.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Storms won't last....
So I might have mentioned in another post, that I was raised in the church. As long as I can remember I was raised in the Catholic Church. When I was moved to California the Catholic Church that my mom had me going to just seem to closed in, I couldn't understand how we could preach one thing, "love thy neighbor," and then talk down on people who are "different." It was frustrating and a moment of conflict for me, so I removed myself from that church and I think that I have become more spiritual than I am religious- because of it. But I believe in God, there is no doubt about that, I wouldn't be where I am today without Him and I will forever sing His praise.
Lately I have been going through it though, and that road always seems so dark when you are struggling to make sense of the world around you and your place in the world around you. I am awaiting news on my Grad School application, and that fear has been eating me up so much that my faith has sort of wavered. Not so much the faith, but I have been consumed with doubt. It has been a long hard two weeks, of many tears and many prayers and asking many questions as well as getting many questions answered. Well this morning I woke up in so much peace, and then I heard this song- There are some points in it that Bishop TD Jakes says to Kirk Franklin and that Kirk Franklin says to TD Jakes that are the moments that even I know when I have wavered. Worried that in the midst of all my pain, how can I be delivered. But like TD Jakes says " Although your heart is heavy, your burdens HE will bear."
I feel HIM around me in everything I do, and I know that He has gotten me this far that even if the journey is not what I had planned, it is still the right one for me. I'm not one to preach or pull someone to the word of God, and I know that I still have my faults, but I know when I am blessed and when I have a testimony, and so for me today, I am so thankful to just be at peace of mind, and know wholeheartedly that no matter what I will face, I will find favor in the end because HE is there beside me. So to this I want to share with you the song that sort of woke me up. And then if I can find another video, the one that keeps me so much more blessed...
911- Kirk Franklin and Bishop TD Jakes
And the song that just gets into my heart everytime and is just the PERFECT Prayer:
Lately I have been going through it though, and that road always seems so dark when you are struggling to make sense of the world around you and your place in the world around you. I am awaiting news on my Grad School application, and that fear has been eating me up so much that my faith has sort of wavered. Not so much the faith, but I have been consumed with doubt. It has been a long hard two weeks, of many tears and many prayers and asking many questions as well as getting many questions answered. Well this morning I woke up in so much peace, and then I heard this song- There are some points in it that Bishop TD Jakes says to Kirk Franklin and that Kirk Franklin says to TD Jakes that are the moments that even I know when I have wavered. Worried that in the midst of all my pain, how can I be delivered. But like TD Jakes says " Although your heart is heavy, your burdens HE will bear."
I feel HIM around me in everything I do, and I know that He has gotten me this far that even if the journey is not what I had planned, it is still the right one for me. I'm not one to preach or pull someone to the word of God, and I know that I still have my faults, but I know when I am blessed and when I have a testimony, and so for me today, I am so thankful to just be at peace of mind, and know wholeheartedly that no matter what I will face, I will find favor in the end because HE is there beside me. So to this I want to share with you the song that sort of woke me up. And then if I can find another video, the one that keeps me so much more blessed...
911- Kirk Franklin and Bishop TD Jakes
And the song that just gets into my heart everytime and is just the PERFECT Prayer:
Sunday, June 6, 2010
So it seems that I am in the mood to talk a little bit more...
I was born and raised (well for the most part) in Athens, Ohio. Home of Ohio University, our famous Halloween Block Parties and the Ohio University Bobcats, who took out Georgetown University in Basketball this past season during the Sweet 16!!
I was born in O'blenness Memorial Hospital on August 9, 1985 @ 5:45am. Ooo wee! My mom was in med school at the time, I believe. Anyways, we moved around while my mother pursued her Medical career. I lived in Toledo, Youngstown, Warren and Athens. My mom, Dad and I were the only ones from our family that lived in Ohio.
In honor of my Ohio roots here is a little Bone-Thugs-and-Harmony, some home state artists:
This was such a good video btw! I mean a great video...
The rest of my family either lived in NY (Queens on my dad's side) and Spring Valley (on my mother's side) or in Canada ( my great uncle and aunts from my mother's side). Like I said my family is Haitian but my parents didn't meet in Haiti. They met in Nyack NY where the Cerans were the big names around town. My uncle Lucien(but I call him Godfather Toto) is in a big Haitian band: System Band!!! So people in the Haitian community in the states and in Haiti know of him and the band. My dad was a big soccer star in Nyack so there are a lot of people who hear our name out there and talk about the good ole days, playin soccer or running around with the fam. Anyways, needless to say holidays and vacations were spent between Spring Valley and Queens. I have to admit I had more fun in Queens, more cousins my age to play with etc. If I haven't mentioned I was/am an only child.
Anywho so when I was 3 we moved to Denver for a little while, how long I am not sure. But that began my love of Broncos and John Elway. At some point we moved back to Ohio and moved around the state for a while. People often ask if I was an army brat- my mom was in the army but that's not why we moved.
Anyways, I enjoyed my time living in Ohio. My best friend Siyarin Tan-Shuttleworth and her family were very close to me and my family. Siyarin and I joke that we were best friends before birth because we call each other womb buddies- our moms were pregnant with us at the same time. I mean we GREW up together, her grandparents were my grandparents, her uncles were my uncles. We were/are tight!!
Other friends I have had along the way meant a lot to me too.. Especially my childhood friends I had growing up in Athens and in Nelsonville Ohio. People that I went to elementary school and Middle school with, I mean they were awesome people. When I was 9 years old my cousin came to live with us. His father, my Uncle Gary died of cancer, when I was 10 his mother died. My cousin and I never really got along, I always wanted a sibling, but, well let's just say it is a lot different when you sort of get what you want. But needless to say life was good. My mom was getting in medical magazines etc. We built a new house/ mansion, we were on the rise as one of the only black families in Athens. On my 12th birthday, that whole lifestyle changed. My mom kicked my father out of the house, and my parents underwent a brutal divorce. It was the first divorce that I had heard of and that my friends had heard of as well. It was tough. Especially because it was a constant fight! UGH.. Anyways, for now let's just say I grew up fast.... That was possibly when Eminem meant the most to me. He just came out with Hi my name is
I remember when this video was first unveiled on MTV's TRL (Total Request Live) YO!! I was like who is this crazy white boy from Detroit rappin? And then I heard his lyrics and fell in love!! His album, I think might have been the first rap album I snuck to listen to- ha ha ha! And I made sure I listened to all the curse words!! OMG!! Anyways, it was sort of therapeutic, we just lost 'Pac and it kind of filled a void. Plus like I mentioned Em has been some therapy... Oh wow, I was just brought back... There is a thunderstorm going on right now, and I remember as a kid during the height of my parents divorce it always rained hard. I used to go walk in the woods behind my house with a journal, a book, a packed lunch and my Walkman and just walk for 2 hours in the rain and chill. I kind of felt that every time it rained, God was crying for me, for the pain that I was going through. Anyways, my parents' divorce took like 2 years, basically the whole 8th grade.. It was such a stressful situation. I favored my father, we had a better relationship. My mom to me was just this person in my life. I didn't really "know" her as my parent, if that makes sense. I don't know I was always with my father so I just knew him better. As a kid I would get my dad a mother's day card and his birthday card. I mean I would get my mom the obligational mother's day card also but it was more as a duty. I guess I realized that for my mother, her career came first but with my father it was different.
But back to the good memories about Ohio. I loved the quiet, I loved the outdoors. I went camping as a kid, spent time fishing, picking berries, bonfires and farms. It was a straight country lifestyle that I loved. I will always be reminded of what it was like to be a country girl, riding my bike through the woods, or catching fireflies at night. Or listening to bull frogs in my neighbors pond. I miss the block parties we had as kids, I miss the summer bbqs and just the "natural" things we used to do. I miss waking up in the morning and running outside and being out until who knows when at night. I miss the smell of rain coming through the lush green backyard that we had. Everything that I remember about Ohio is about the landscape and mainly everything that I loved about growing up and being a kid. I guess to be honest those are the memories I want to hold onto. But something in me knew that I would always outgrow Ohio.
Anyways, this blog started as an homage to the places I have lived.. So the summer before I turned 13 years old my mother abducted me (I'll talk more about that another time) and took me to California. Ripped me away from my family, my friends, my childhood. I had so many plans and dreams of life in Ohio. I was blessed to be given the opportunities that I had. I knew I didn't want to live in Ohio my whole life, but I wanted that decision to be mine. I love Ohio and I would love to go back and relive my childhood to an extent, but that place carries with it so many messed up memories that I don't know if I can ever step foot in that state again. It has been 4 years since I had to go to Ohio.. Ugh, this is so tough typing about this right now, but it's time to talk about it..
Anyways I moved to California with my mom, my cousin was sent to boarding school in Idaho, I wasn't allowed to have any contact with my father. I guess I got it in my head that my parents couldn't get along in one state so the only way that we could all live sanely is if they were 3,000 miles apart. No one really prodded me or asked me what happened and I never pushed to have that conversation. I went to a private alternative school- Palo Alto Prep. Oh boy, I transitioned so much. My best friend in High School was Jessica Fortier- we didn't like each other at first. Our personalities were too much the same. But Jess became someone who changed my life in more ways than one. I am so thankful for her friendship, even if she doesn't realize how much she did for me. We were so much alike, HUGE Eminem fans, we loved the same music, the same movies, we just had a great time!
California is my home, it has my heart. Because I was taken away from my family and because my living environment wasn't the best, my friends became my family. So Jess was like the sister I never thought I would get. When I turned 15 I got a job at Chili's in Mt. View that gave me a little freedom from my home life and let me sort of grow up. I was a great student, and a great worker- but part of my life slipped away from me (again a story that can be told later). But the people at Chili's like J, Jenny and Madeline, they took me under their wing and helped to raise me. I don't know what they saw in the little "messed" up chick from High School, but I am so glad that I met them. God puts people in your life for a reason, and I think to be honest the people I met at Chili's were there because I needed to be reckless, but I need a safe place to do it. And they let me have my reckless moments... Chili's was a HUGE part of my life, I worked for the company for 9 years, helped put me through the first part of my college career, helped me support myself and my vices. It really gave me my two feet to stand on. Not to mention all the great people I got to meet, from customers to coworkers I had a lot of great people to look up to and who supported me then and continue to support me now.
Oh and how the Bay seeps into your skin. I am a BAY girl for real. Ah, the Bay! From the East Bay, to the South Bay to the Peninsula I am such a Bay girl!! I love driving up 280 on a nice day with the windows down just coasting. And hanging in San Francisco on a random afternoon is the best. Not to mention all the good eats, the Bay Area has a flavor all of its own and a place I know like the back of my hand. I have watched it transform so much that it surprises me every time I go back. But let me be clear my Cali love runs for the Bay Area and maybe San Diego only.. There is a HUGE difference between LA (SoCal) and NoCal.. So here is a little bit of my Bay Love and then Cali Love at its best:
E-40 "Sprinkle Me"
And of course you can't be a Cali girl without loving this song
2-Pac "California Love"
So let's see there is a lot I am skipping because I just want to highlight some of the best parts where I have lived. So now on to the NY, when I graduated from Foothill College (yes I skipped a few years) I decided it was time for a change. So your girl picked up and moved to NY. I wanted to get closer to the family I was taken away from, it was the best decision I had made.. and it was always something that I told myself I would live in NY one day. No better time than now right. NY is home for family, I haven't been able to make it home home, not like the Bay that's for sure. But I love NY and for that I have to give this one to Jay-z and A. Keys I think we can all agree that this has definitely become the NY anthem, regardless of the fact that there have been many great artists who have come out of NY and repped hard for it as well. NY is a beauty that allows me to catch different glimpses of it every time I return. I have been blessed to know the city as a kid and then to watch it grow as I have grown into an adult. Each time I see the big lights of the Manhattan skyline, I have been so refreshed. I get so excited to see that concrete jungle and knowing that at least for a little while I am taken care of. NY is comfort- if you've never been go at least once, it will show you things and take you places that you have never been. But here is my NY anthem:
Jay-z and Alicia Keys " Empire State of Mind"
NY because my family is here will always have my heart! I find peace being in NY it is where I come to focus, to find grounding and to just be...
And now I currently live in D.C. so big ups to GoGo and the family that I have made here. This point in my life has been about me being able to live my life for me and about me. The first real area that I have sort of made my own because it was my choice to be here. Why do I love D.C.? Because politics is here, and as I mentioned I am a political thinker. I am so blessed to be in the city "where change happens" and I am living so many great opportunities. The other best part about D.C. is that there are so many different neighborhoods to fall in love with here. So many places to enjoy and grow in, I have been extra excited to get to know them all. And I am doing what I have to do to get to where I need to be. So from a true DMV native I am like the song says " D.C. Chillin,"
I don't know where the next city will take me. My goal is to live in D.C. for at least another year or two and then I would love to move to New Orleans for a while. I think home base I might move back to Denver, raise a fam there, get a glimpse of my childhood without being in Ohio. To be honest I would love to have a home in every city that I love, one in NY, one in the Bay one in D.C. and home base in CO.. But we'll see where that road takes me. I guess I have never really been scared to go out on my own. When I was a kid my dad and I would go on these long road trips. I got to see so many of these great United States on these trips. It was so much fun and I guess seeing all of these places really taught me that I have a lot of places to explore and see. So here is to still exploring and for that matter growing.
Thanks for giving me a moment to reminese on the many places I've been while giving you a chance to sort of see why I love them so much too.
I was born in O'blenness Memorial Hospital on August 9, 1985 @ 5:45am. Ooo wee! My mom was in med school at the time, I believe. Anyways, we moved around while my mother pursued her Medical career. I lived in Toledo, Youngstown, Warren and Athens. My mom, Dad and I were the only ones from our family that lived in Ohio.
In honor of my Ohio roots here is a little Bone-Thugs-and-Harmony, some home state artists:
This was such a good video btw! I mean a great video...
The rest of my family either lived in NY (Queens on my dad's side) and Spring Valley (on my mother's side) or in Canada ( my great uncle and aunts from my mother's side). Like I said my family is Haitian but my parents didn't meet in Haiti. They met in Nyack NY where the Cerans were the big names around town. My uncle Lucien(but I call him Godfather Toto) is in a big Haitian band: System Band!!! So people in the Haitian community in the states and in Haiti know of him and the band. My dad was a big soccer star in Nyack so there are a lot of people who hear our name out there and talk about the good ole days, playin soccer or running around with the fam. Anyways, needless to say holidays and vacations were spent between Spring Valley and Queens. I have to admit I had more fun in Queens, more cousins my age to play with etc. If I haven't mentioned I was/am an only child.
Anywho so when I was 3 we moved to Denver for a little while, how long I am not sure. But that began my love of Broncos and John Elway. At some point we moved back to Ohio and moved around the state for a while. People often ask if I was an army brat- my mom was in the army but that's not why we moved.
Anyways, I enjoyed my time living in Ohio. My best friend Siyarin Tan-Shuttleworth and her family were very close to me and my family. Siyarin and I joke that we were best friends before birth because we call each other womb buddies- our moms were pregnant with us at the same time. I mean we GREW up together, her grandparents were my grandparents, her uncles were my uncles. We were/are tight!!
Other friends I have had along the way meant a lot to me too.. Especially my childhood friends I had growing up in Athens and in Nelsonville Ohio. People that I went to elementary school and Middle school with, I mean they were awesome people. When I was 9 years old my cousin came to live with us. His father, my Uncle Gary died of cancer, when I was 10 his mother died. My cousin and I never really got along, I always wanted a sibling, but, well let's just say it is a lot different when you sort of get what you want. But needless to say life was good. My mom was getting in medical magazines etc. We built a new house/ mansion, we were on the rise as one of the only black families in Athens. On my 12th birthday, that whole lifestyle changed. My mom kicked my father out of the house, and my parents underwent a brutal divorce. It was the first divorce that I had heard of and that my friends had heard of as well. It was tough. Especially because it was a constant fight! UGH.. Anyways, for now let's just say I grew up fast.... That was possibly when Eminem meant the most to me. He just came out with Hi my name is
I remember when this video was first unveiled on MTV's TRL (Total Request Live) YO!! I was like who is this crazy white boy from Detroit rappin? And then I heard his lyrics and fell in love!! His album, I think might have been the first rap album I snuck to listen to- ha ha ha! And I made sure I listened to all the curse words!! OMG!! Anyways, it was sort of therapeutic, we just lost 'Pac and it kind of filled a void. Plus like I mentioned Em has been some therapy... Oh wow, I was just brought back... There is a thunderstorm going on right now, and I remember as a kid during the height of my parents divorce it always rained hard. I used to go walk in the woods behind my house with a journal, a book, a packed lunch and my Walkman and just walk for 2 hours in the rain and chill. I kind of felt that every time it rained, God was crying for me, for the pain that I was going through. Anyways, my parents' divorce took like 2 years, basically the whole 8th grade.. It was such a stressful situation. I favored my father, we had a better relationship. My mom to me was just this person in my life. I didn't really "know" her as my parent, if that makes sense. I don't know I was always with my father so I just knew him better. As a kid I would get my dad a mother's day card and his birthday card. I mean I would get my mom the obligational mother's day card also but it was more as a duty. I guess I realized that for my mother, her career came first but with my father it was different.
But back to the good memories about Ohio. I loved the quiet, I loved the outdoors. I went camping as a kid, spent time fishing, picking berries, bonfires and farms. It was a straight country lifestyle that I loved. I will always be reminded of what it was like to be a country girl, riding my bike through the woods, or catching fireflies at night. Or listening to bull frogs in my neighbors pond. I miss the block parties we had as kids, I miss the summer bbqs and just the "natural" things we used to do. I miss waking up in the morning and running outside and being out until who knows when at night. I miss the smell of rain coming through the lush green backyard that we had. Everything that I remember about Ohio is about the landscape and mainly everything that I loved about growing up and being a kid. I guess to be honest those are the memories I want to hold onto. But something in me knew that I would always outgrow Ohio.
Anyways, this blog started as an homage to the places I have lived.. So the summer before I turned 13 years old my mother abducted me (I'll talk more about that another time) and took me to California. Ripped me away from my family, my friends, my childhood. I had so many plans and dreams of life in Ohio. I was blessed to be given the opportunities that I had. I knew I didn't want to live in Ohio my whole life, but I wanted that decision to be mine. I love Ohio and I would love to go back and relive my childhood to an extent, but that place carries with it so many messed up memories that I don't know if I can ever step foot in that state again. It has been 4 years since I had to go to Ohio.. Ugh, this is so tough typing about this right now, but it's time to talk about it..
Anyways I moved to California with my mom, my cousin was sent to boarding school in Idaho, I wasn't allowed to have any contact with my father. I guess I got it in my head that my parents couldn't get along in one state so the only way that we could all live sanely is if they were 3,000 miles apart. No one really prodded me or asked me what happened and I never pushed to have that conversation. I went to a private alternative school- Palo Alto Prep. Oh boy, I transitioned so much. My best friend in High School was Jessica Fortier- we didn't like each other at first. Our personalities were too much the same. But Jess became someone who changed my life in more ways than one. I am so thankful for her friendship, even if she doesn't realize how much she did for me. We were so much alike, HUGE Eminem fans, we loved the same music, the same movies, we just had a great time!
California is my home, it has my heart. Because I was taken away from my family and because my living environment wasn't the best, my friends became my family. So Jess was like the sister I never thought I would get. When I turned 15 I got a job at Chili's in Mt. View that gave me a little freedom from my home life and let me sort of grow up. I was a great student, and a great worker- but part of my life slipped away from me (again a story that can be told later). But the people at Chili's like J, Jenny and Madeline, they took me under their wing and helped to raise me. I don't know what they saw in the little "messed" up chick from High School, but I am so glad that I met them. God puts people in your life for a reason, and I think to be honest the people I met at Chili's were there because I needed to be reckless, but I need a safe place to do it. And they let me have my reckless moments... Chili's was a HUGE part of my life, I worked for the company for 9 years, helped put me through the first part of my college career, helped me support myself and my vices. It really gave me my two feet to stand on. Not to mention all the great people I got to meet, from customers to coworkers I had a lot of great people to look up to and who supported me then and continue to support me now.
Oh and how the Bay seeps into your skin. I am a BAY girl for real. Ah, the Bay! From the East Bay, to the South Bay to the Peninsula I am such a Bay girl!! I love driving up 280 on a nice day with the windows down just coasting. And hanging in San Francisco on a random afternoon is the best. Not to mention all the good eats, the Bay Area has a flavor all of its own and a place I know like the back of my hand. I have watched it transform so much that it surprises me every time I go back. But let me be clear my Cali love runs for the Bay Area and maybe San Diego only.. There is a HUGE difference between LA (SoCal) and NoCal.. So here is a little bit of my Bay Love and then Cali Love at its best:
E-40 "Sprinkle Me"
And of course you can't be a Cali girl without loving this song
2-Pac "California Love"
So let's see there is a lot I am skipping because I just want to highlight some of the best parts where I have lived. So now on to the NY, when I graduated from Foothill College (yes I skipped a few years) I decided it was time for a change. So your girl picked up and moved to NY. I wanted to get closer to the family I was taken away from, it was the best decision I had made.. and it was always something that I told myself I would live in NY one day. No better time than now right. NY is home for family, I haven't been able to make it home home, not like the Bay that's for sure. But I love NY and for that I have to give this one to Jay-z and A. Keys I think we can all agree that this has definitely become the NY anthem, regardless of the fact that there have been many great artists who have come out of NY and repped hard for it as well. NY is a beauty that allows me to catch different glimpses of it every time I return. I have been blessed to know the city as a kid and then to watch it grow as I have grown into an adult. Each time I see the big lights of the Manhattan skyline, I have been so refreshed. I get so excited to see that concrete jungle and knowing that at least for a little while I am taken care of. NY is comfort- if you've never been go at least once, it will show you things and take you places that you have never been. But here is my NY anthem:
Jay-z and Alicia Keys " Empire State of Mind"
NY because my family is here will always have my heart! I find peace being in NY it is where I come to focus, to find grounding and to just be...
And now I currently live in D.C. so big ups to GoGo and the family that I have made here. This point in my life has been about me being able to live my life for me and about me. The first real area that I have sort of made my own because it was my choice to be here. Why do I love D.C.? Because politics is here, and as I mentioned I am a political thinker. I am so blessed to be in the city "where change happens" and I am living so many great opportunities. The other best part about D.C. is that there are so many different neighborhoods to fall in love with here. So many places to enjoy and grow in, I have been extra excited to get to know them all. And I am doing what I have to do to get to where I need to be. So from a true DMV native I am like the song says " D.C. Chillin,"
I don't know where the next city will take me. My goal is to live in D.C. for at least another year or two and then I would love to move to New Orleans for a while. I think home base I might move back to Denver, raise a fam there, get a glimpse of my childhood without being in Ohio. To be honest I would love to have a home in every city that I love, one in NY, one in the Bay one in D.C. and home base in CO.. But we'll see where that road takes me. I guess I have never really been scared to go out on my own. When I was a kid my dad and I would go on these long road trips. I got to see so many of these great United States on these trips. It was so much fun and I guess seeing all of these places really taught me that I have a lot of places to explore and see. So here is to still exploring and for that matter growing.
Thanks for giving me a moment to reminese on the many places I've been while giving you a chance to sort of see why I love them so much too.
A little bit more into the window of my world....
... Hey ya'll so first let me just say thank you for allowing me the opportunity to speak my life in the best way that I know how. Again feel free to comment where you see fit. Right now my SportsGal89 In the Building blog is taking on more speed, but it is what it is...
Anyways, like I mentioned (I think) this blog is my therapy. I used to write all the time when I was younger, in journals, for assignments in class and so much has changed in my life that I just stopped writing.. But now I am slowly getting back to where I need to be and you are giving me that opportunity. So with that a little bit more about myself. I don't know how religious I am- I was raised in a catholic church, I believe in God the Father, but I believe that I am more spiritual than I follow the religious institutions themselves. My eyes have been open to the great blessings that the Lord has given me and everyday is a struggle but everyday I get closer to His glory. Anyways, God means so much to me, so in many ways I guess I am finding my way back to being religious, but first I am finding my way back to a relationship with God.
My heart has been so full as of late, I know that He is watching over me and I hear Him calling to me. I know that there is a reason bigger than me, that will get me to where I need to be. I know that I have come through so much in my life and the only reason I have been able to get this far is because of His grace and His guidance..
But on this particular day, your girl is just going through somethings and needs a little bit of support. So this song does it all for me. Anthony Evans asks for his life to be restored with his song Restore me I just wanted to share it with you.
Anyways, like I mentioned (I think) this blog is my therapy. I used to write all the time when I was younger, in journals, for assignments in class and so much has changed in my life that I just stopped writing.. But now I am slowly getting back to where I need to be and you are giving me that opportunity. So with that a little bit more about myself. I don't know how religious I am- I was raised in a catholic church, I believe in God the Father, but I believe that I am more spiritual than I follow the religious institutions themselves. My eyes have been open to the great blessings that the Lord has given me and everyday is a struggle but everyday I get closer to His glory. Anyways, God means so much to me, so in many ways I guess I am finding my way back to being religious, but first I am finding my way back to a relationship with God.
My heart has been so full as of late, I know that He is watching over me and I hear Him calling to me. I know that there is a reason bigger than me, that will get me to where I need to be. I know that I have come through so much in my life and the only reason I have been able to get this far is because of His grace and His guidance..
But on this particular day, your girl is just going through somethings and needs a little bit of support. So this song does it all for me. Anthony Evans asks for his life to be restored with his song Restore me I just wanted to share it with you.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
So every so often...
There is a song that comes along that just speaks volumes to the stage of your life that you happen to be in. This song does it for me.. Not to mention that Em (Eminem, aka Marshall Mathers III, aka Slim Shady) is one of my favorite rap artists ever! I am so excited to see Recovery drop! I can't wait..
In 2002 Eminem's 8 Mile came out, and with it came the song Lose Yourself with the line " If you only got one shot, one opportunity, would you take it?" Em opened my eyes to the possibilities of life and motivated me through one of the biggest stages in my life. Don't give up your life, because you only got this one shot.
Now 8 years later Em is back on top of his game (not that I ever thought he left) But here he comes back again with yet another motivating anthem for me "I'm not afraid," off of his highly anticipated 7th Studio album Recovery. And he killed it...
Here are the lyrics followed by why I love it so much..
(Hook)
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever the weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
(Intro)
Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there
(Verse 1)
You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit and
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shits his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for Christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe
(Hook)
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
(Verse 2)
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't
This fucking black cloud's still follows me around
But it's time to exercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!
(Hook)
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
(Bridge)
And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now
(Verse 3)
It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don't even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility's as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle lonely
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Put a ??? and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and
(Hook)
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
The hook alone leads you to know that this is going to be dope. I mean kid, "I'm not afraid to take a stand,"- Ain't nothing gonna stop me.. I am going through one of the biggest transitions in my life right now and hearing this lyric, means so much. Like no matter what comes next I'm gonna stand up and do me. DANG! So sick!!!
Then he goes in:
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
****
And to be honest, I feel the same way if you ain't gonna be there to help me, than I can't do nothing but take you out too. And sometimes it is you against the world. You have to step up and take care of you...
*****
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit and
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shits his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe
******
This is why I love Em so much, he is not afraid to lay it all on the table.. I mean, he pushes the envelope like nobody's business and he basically lays it out saying that I'm not backing down. Which is great for his fans who were worried when he "retired" from the game back in 2005 after the death of Proof.
*****
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
*****
So here is where I know that I might be sparking some controversy, but I am so in love with music, that I pick up on the grey. This line he spits about "You said you was King, you lied through your teeth," Yo! I'm not sure if he is talking about himself of KING (T.I) and maybe I'm the only one picking up on it, but I can't help but wonder..
And here is why I'm not sure if he really is talking about T.I because next he goes into this bit:
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
******
So, I don't know if I am the only one who really liked RELAPSE.. I mean for 5 years out the game, I really loved it. People were hating on his new "voice" but I thought it was classic Em and I really liked it.. But I guess I'll be the only one who rocks it crazy...
*********
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars
********
And this is what Killed it for me!!! No lie. This part wrapped up everything that I am feeling. Like I said I am going through a transition. I just graduated from College with my BA. I am 24 going on 25 I should have had this degree 4 years ago. But you know what it's not about the journey so much, as to the fact that you get to the end of it. And so I am here now, not sure what the next part of my life holds, but knowing that "I'm not afraid," to conquer that next step. And for him to throw this line out there " I shoot for the moon but I'm too busy gazing at stars," WHAT?! Bananas!!! You set the bar for where you want to go, and there is freedom in "gazing at the stars" like that just means you are setting up so many more dreams and goals and the world is endless. I don't know.. This song has definitely gotten under my skin and I am so glad that this is the first song off of Recovery and I can't wait to hear the rest of it..
So with that here is the video to go with the song.. Let me know what you think..
In 2002 Eminem's 8 Mile came out, and with it came the song Lose Yourself with the line " If you only got one shot, one opportunity, would you take it?" Em opened my eyes to the possibilities of life and motivated me through one of the biggest stages in my life. Don't give up your life, because you only got this one shot.
Now 8 years later Em is back on top of his game (not that I ever thought he left) But here he comes back again with yet another motivating anthem for me "I'm not afraid," off of his highly anticipated 7th Studio album Recovery. And he killed it...
Here are the lyrics followed by why I love it so much..
(Hook)
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever the weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
(Intro)
Yeah, It's been a ride...
I guess I had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there
(Verse 1)
You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take this thing out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit and
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shits his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for Christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe
(Hook)
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
(Verse 2)
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't
This fucking black cloud's still follows me around
But it's time to exercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now!
(Hook)
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
(Bridge)
And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now
(Verse 3)
It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don't even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus soley on handling my responsibility's as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle lonely
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
Put a ??? and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and
(Hook)
I'm not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you're not alone
Holla if you feel that you've been down the same road
The hook alone leads you to know that this is going to be dope. I mean kid, "I'm not afraid to take a stand,"- Ain't nothing gonna stop me.. I am going through one of the biggest transitions in my life right now and hearing this lyric, means so much. Like no matter what comes next I'm gonna stand up and do me. DANG! So sick!!!
Then he goes in:
Cause ain't no way I'm let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say 'em or do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doing this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up, if a thing's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
****
And to be honest, I feel the same way if you ain't gonna be there to help me, than I can't do nothing but take you out too. And sometimes it is you against the world. You have to step up and take care of you...
*****
No if ands or buts don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit and
Whether he's on salary, paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shits his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a fuck you for christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the universe
******
This is why I love Em so much, he is not afraid to lay it all on the table.. I mean, he pushes the envelope like nobody's business and he basically lays it out saying that I'm not backing down. Which is great for his fans who were worried when he "retired" from the game back in 2005 after the death of Proof.
*****
Ok quit playin' with the scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
*****
So here is where I know that I might be sparking some controversy, but I am so in love with music, that I pick up on the grey. This line he spits about "You said you was King, you lied through your teeth," Yo! I'm not sure if he is talking about himself of KING (T.I) and maybe I'm the only one picking up on it, but I can't help but wonder..
And here is why I'm not sure if he really is talking about T.I because next he goes into this bit:
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
******
So, I don't know if I am the only one who really liked RELAPSE.. I mean for 5 years out the game, I really loved it. People were hating on his new "voice" but I thought it was classic Em and I really liked it.. But I guess I'll be the only one who rocks it crazy...
*********
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars
********
And this is what Killed it for me!!! No lie. This part wrapped up everything that I am feeling. Like I said I am going through a transition. I just graduated from College with my BA. I am 24 going on 25 I should have had this degree 4 years ago. But you know what it's not about the journey so much, as to the fact that you get to the end of it. And so I am here now, not sure what the next part of my life holds, but knowing that "I'm not afraid," to conquer that next step. And for him to throw this line out there " I shoot for the moon but I'm too busy gazing at stars," WHAT?! Bananas!!! You set the bar for where you want to go, and there is freedom in "gazing at the stars" like that just means you are setting up so many more dreams and goals and the world is endless. I don't know.. This song has definitely gotten under my skin and I am so glad that this is the first song off of Recovery and I can't wait to hear the rest of it..
So with that here is the video to go with the song.. Let me know what you think..
Thursday, June 3, 2010
You think you know but you have no idea...
... That as much as I love music, I also love politics even more. It is my passion in life to make changes in the world that we live in. I love the outreach that the United States and many Americans take to help the international community, especially because I have an immigrant background myself. My family is from Haiti, I am 100% Haitian. The American side of me is that I was born here in the states and that well, I have never been to Haiti and barely can speak creole. And so to the Haitian people who would read this I am what they would call blanc and I guess given the circumstances I am blanc but my love of the country and my love of the culture is something that is undeniable. Anyways I will get more into that later.
There is something I live by that says that in order to change the outside world you sort of have to start with your own perspective. I.E. you have to change yourself before you can start fixing other areas around you. Well, that is the same feeling I have about how we look at the world outside of the United States. I completely understand this urge to fight poverty and diseases in countries that can't do it for themselves, but I think there needs to be a great investment in the issues that we face here on our shores. I think that the whole " war on drugs, and guns, poverty, etc." has been so lost and manipulated that we have destroyed any real chance that we have had to correct these mishaps. But I know that there are many people in this great country that serve to make the systems better and to really give a level playing field to all. Needless to say I am one of those people, who want to correct ourselves before we are able to correct other things. My passion runs so deep that I pretty much focus on whatever task really draws me to it, I love the idea of social justice and advocacy. I don't have a particular topic that I would ride high for: for instance I participated in an Alternative Break to New Orleans in 2009. I had always wanted to volunteer after the horrific outcomes from Hurricane Katrina and lack of government support on the ground etc. It was a very telling experience to see how little had changed 4 years after the storm. It was also very unnerving for me to learn so many details of the breakdown of a community and how fractured it was. From and education system that was failing, to a juvenile justice disparity to an economic one etc. New Orleans sort of seeped into my blood and into my spirit, and the problems that New Orleans faces are the ones that can be found anywhere, but I have a soft spot for the area. Well this spring break I led my own Alt Break back to New Orleans to explore the meaning behind what it means to serve. I think that too often we serve blindly. I myself would love to get my hands dirty and really put all of my effort and strength into helping other people, but first really listening to their needs and figuring all of that stuff out. It's funny people in my life say I have the backbone to be a great politic an, but I have never wanted to have that be my life. I don't want to be in front of a desk making changes I want to give my time and effort to be a champion for change. I may not have much, but I have my life and my time. So with that I volunteer when I can and I learn when I can and I devote myself to many efforts to gain more knowledge and understanding into the world around me.
Well, what brought on this particular blog: A MASSIVE OIL CATASTROPHE IN THE GULF! On May 5th, a pipe burst or a hole was created in a drilling space owned by BP. And now almost 45 days later this hole has not been plugged and it is predicted that the oil could be flowing out into August. Well of course two things really bother me, one the fact that this is in the New Orleans area (a place that I have grown to love, and an area that I would eventually like to live in so that I can really devote more time to helping) and two that it is taking this long for this to be fixed. If you do not know let me give you a recap, here's a link of a Timeline created by CNN:
http://www.cnn.com/2010/US/05/03/timeline.gulf.spill/index.html
This one is a brief about the response created by CNN:
http://www.cnn.com/2010/US/04/29/interactive.oil.spills/index.html
And here is where I have an issue. BP, as the producer of this oil drilling catastrophe should have had some sort of game plan in place in the chance that something like this happened. Any company that plans to drill has to have a game plan put together for these kind of occurrences. BP's plan was apparently 582-pages that outlined what their proposal was and how they were going to cleanup if something like this were to happen. We all know, or at least should know that most companies really don't cleanup after their toxic waste and instead buy "green plans" to sort of offset the damage they are doing in other areas of the world. Like a company that emits carbon dioxide and other toxins into the ozone can buy land to plant trees to sort of cancel out all the bad that they are doing. Regardless, BP was supposed to have a backup plan and it has failed multiple times, now BP's President has been caught in a sling with comments like ," I want my life back." Well let me tell you something Mr. BP Pres, we all want our lives back, but right now that isn't possible so you better get your head right, people's livelihoods are at stake, and in an environment still reeling from the effects of a Hurricane 5 years ago, this is not making that transition any smoother. The other issue I have is something I heard on CNN this morning, the projections of the cost of what this could do to BP- for crying out lout, who cares how much money it costs to clean it up, just freaking do it. I think BP can manage to give up billions of dollars when the effects of their blunder are going to cost the country and possibly the world much more money and time in the future.
My other issue is that the Obama Administration is going back and forth with BP. I am an avid supporter of Obama- it bothers me that this whole thing is being compared to Hurricane Katrina etc, but I think that he really needs to stand up and take charge. I get that it is BP's responsibility to fix this issue, but they have f'd up long enough and it's time that Obama takes charge instead of trying to put their balls in a sling. If we can send people to the moon, produce open heart surgeries, figure out ways in which to beef up our military etc, I think we can freaking figure out a way to plug up a gosh darn hole in the middle of the ocean. And to say that it will take until August, I mean this is starting to be ridiculous!
I'm worried about how much more oil will spill into the Ocean and how much larger this cleanup is going to be in the end. The other part of this is I understand the need to wait to evaluate how big the damage is going to be, but I definitely think there needs to be more done.
Now in terms of politics what does this do for the issues on the Environment and Energy efficiency. Well I think it does a lot. I mean this does a lot for the Green Supporters and alliances who can now point a finger at the big oil companies and say see, you need to get your act together. This makes it a stronger case for the EPA to actually enforce regulations that have severe consequences. It also puts pressure on the companies and the American public to realize that the way in which we are living needs to severely change. It will be interesting to see after the fall out what bills are proposed and what stances the American public does to create direct change for these issues.
Right now, I am tired of listening to the back and forth and I want to see something done. I want to see the Obama Administration really take charge and do something about this. I want to be able to go down to the Gulf Coast and volunteer- which I am working on right now, but this is where I am at with the whole situation.
What do you think?
In the meantime here is a link to CNN's main page about the oil spill:
http://www.cnn.com/SPECIALS/2010/gulf.coast.oil.spill/?hpt=T1
And here is a little video footage as well:
This one is about the Oil Spill reaching Alabama
This one is about BP and their next steps
And this one is actual footage of the oil in the LA marsh
And the song of the moment:
MJ's Man in the Mirror
There is something I live by that says that in order to change the outside world you sort of have to start with your own perspective. I.E. you have to change yourself before you can start fixing other areas around you. Well, that is the same feeling I have about how we look at the world outside of the United States. I completely understand this urge to fight poverty and diseases in countries that can't do it for themselves, but I think there needs to be a great investment in the issues that we face here on our shores. I think that the whole " war on drugs, and guns, poverty, etc." has been so lost and manipulated that we have destroyed any real chance that we have had to correct these mishaps. But I know that there are many people in this great country that serve to make the systems better and to really give a level playing field to all. Needless to say I am one of those people, who want to correct ourselves before we are able to correct other things. My passion runs so deep that I pretty much focus on whatever task really draws me to it, I love the idea of social justice and advocacy. I don't have a particular topic that I would ride high for: for instance I participated in an Alternative Break to New Orleans in 2009. I had always wanted to volunteer after the horrific outcomes from Hurricane Katrina and lack of government support on the ground etc. It was a very telling experience to see how little had changed 4 years after the storm. It was also very unnerving for me to learn so many details of the breakdown of a community and how fractured it was. From and education system that was failing, to a juvenile justice disparity to an economic one etc. New Orleans sort of seeped into my blood and into my spirit, and the problems that New Orleans faces are the ones that can be found anywhere, but I have a soft spot for the area. Well this spring break I led my own Alt Break back to New Orleans to explore the meaning behind what it means to serve. I think that too often we serve blindly. I myself would love to get my hands dirty and really put all of my effort and strength into helping other people, but first really listening to their needs and figuring all of that stuff out. It's funny people in my life say I have the backbone to be a great politic an, but I have never wanted to have that be my life. I don't want to be in front of a desk making changes I want to give my time and effort to be a champion for change. I may not have much, but I have my life and my time. So with that I volunteer when I can and I learn when I can and I devote myself to many efforts to gain more knowledge and understanding into the world around me.
Well, what brought on this particular blog: A MASSIVE OIL CATASTROPHE IN THE GULF! On May 5th, a pipe burst or a hole was created in a drilling space owned by BP. And now almost 45 days later this hole has not been plugged and it is predicted that the oil could be flowing out into August. Well of course two things really bother me, one the fact that this is in the New Orleans area (a place that I have grown to love, and an area that I would eventually like to live in so that I can really devote more time to helping) and two that it is taking this long for this to be fixed. If you do not know let me give you a recap, here's a link of a Timeline created by CNN:
http://www.cnn.com/2010/US/05/03/timeline.gulf.spill/index.html
This one is a brief about the response created by CNN:
http://www.cnn.com/2010/US/04/29/interactive.oil.spills/index.html
And here is where I have an issue. BP, as the producer of this oil drilling catastrophe should have had some sort of game plan in place in the chance that something like this happened. Any company that plans to drill has to have a game plan put together for these kind of occurrences. BP's plan was apparently 582-pages that outlined what their proposal was and how they were going to cleanup if something like this were to happen. We all know, or at least should know that most companies really don't cleanup after their toxic waste and instead buy "green plans" to sort of offset the damage they are doing in other areas of the world. Like a company that emits carbon dioxide and other toxins into the ozone can buy land to plant trees to sort of cancel out all the bad that they are doing. Regardless, BP was supposed to have a backup plan and it has failed multiple times, now BP's President has been caught in a sling with comments like ," I want my life back." Well let me tell you something Mr. BP Pres, we all want our lives back, but right now that isn't possible so you better get your head right, people's livelihoods are at stake, and in an environment still reeling from the effects of a Hurricane 5 years ago, this is not making that transition any smoother. The other issue I have is something I heard on CNN this morning, the projections of the cost of what this could do to BP- for crying out lout, who cares how much money it costs to clean it up, just freaking do it. I think BP can manage to give up billions of dollars when the effects of their blunder are going to cost the country and possibly the world much more money and time in the future.
My other issue is that the Obama Administration is going back and forth with BP. I am an avid supporter of Obama- it bothers me that this whole thing is being compared to Hurricane Katrina etc, but I think that he really needs to stand up and take charge. I get that it is BP's responsibility to fix this issue, but they have f'd up long enough and it's time that Obama takes charge instead of trying to put their balls in a sling. If we can send people to the moon, produce open heart surgeries, figure out ways in which to beef up our military etc, I think we can freaking figure out a way to plug up a gosh darn hole in the middle of the ocean. And to say that it will take until August, I mean this is starting to be ridiculous!
I'm worried about how much more oil will spill into the Ocean and how much larger this cleanup is going to be in the end. The other part of this is I understand the need to wait to evaluate how big the damage is going to be, but I definitely think there needs to be more done.
Now in terms of politics what does this do for the issues on the Environment and Energy efficiency. Well I think it does a lot. I mean this does a lot for the Green Supporters and alliances who can now point a finger at the big oil companies and say see, you need to get your act together. This makes it a stronger case for the EPA to actually enforce regulations that have severe consequences. It also puts pressure on the companies and the American public to realize that the way in which we are living needs to severely change. It will be interesting to see after the fall out what bills are proposed and what stances the American public does to create direct change for these issues.
Right now, I am tired of listening to the back and forth and I want to see something done. I want to see the Obama Administration really take charge and do something about this. I want to be able to go down to the Gulf Coast and volunteer- which I am working on right now, but this is where I am at with the whole situation.
What do you think?
In the meantime here is a link to CNN's main page about the oil spill:
http://www.cnn.com/SPECIALS/2010/gulf.coast.oil.spill/?hpt=T1
And here is a little video footage as well:
This one is about the Oil Spill reaching Alabama
This one is about BP and their next steps
And this one is actual footage of the oil in the LA marsh
And the song of the moment:
MJ's Man in the Mirror
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
In honor of Memorial Day and all the troops that serve...
Hey ya'll so I know that you can sort of read into a person's life from the music that they listen to, but I wanted to share a little bit more about me. I am EXTREMELY political and world conscious!! And Memorial Day always brings up HUGE ordeals etc because of every one's stance on war etc. And given that today is a different climate than it was during WWI and on, I mean 9/11 changed the face of the world and the way we fight wars and see wars. Needless to say I would love to live in a world without war, but I think that the positions I often hear is "I don't support the troops because I don't support war," I think is a little too extreme.
I find it confusing, because to me the two are not hand in hand. I mean yes you have to have troops in order for war to be fought, but there is an institution of war and war mentality that goes further than the troops and that needs to be corrected before the troops can be removed from any situation. And irregardless, people are dying on both ends. So Memorial Day is a day that we remember and pay honor to those many soldiers that have died, but I take it a step further and remember all those who have died at the hand of war- because in the end what suffers the most is world peace in general.
My belief, " I support the troops, but I do not support war." I think it is bad enough watching young men and women dying left and right for a cause they might not necessarily believe in but have no other choice. For instance in the United States a majority of the military personnel come from poor, or lower middle class backgrounds. Joining the military is a means to provide support for their families and for their future etc. Children of immigrant backgrounds make up a percentage as well, given that it is one way in which they "prove" their citizenship etc.
But no matter how it begins the point is lives are lost, lives that are in their own way attempting to provide freedoms for us at home. Given, like I said there are other means in which we could provide these freedoms but until the government and for that matter the people of this nation decide how we go about this than we will continue to use the resources (i.e. people's lives) to do it.
Anyways, my blood boils when I hear these comments, although I understand the premise, I don't really follow.
And so a song to go with this, from the great MJ <3
I find it confusing, because to me the two are not hand in hand. I mean yes you have to have troops in order for war to be fought, but there is an institution of war and war mentality that goes further than the troops and that needs to be corrected before the troops can be removed from any situation. And irregardless, people are dying on both ends. So Memorial Day is a day that we remember and pay honor to those many soldiers that have died, but I take it a step further and remember all those who have died at the hand of war- because in the end what suffers the most is world peace in general.
My belief, " I support the troops, but I do not support war." I think it is bad enough watching young men and women dying left and right for a cause they might not necessarily believe in but have no other choice. For instance in the United States a majority of the military personnel come from poor, or lower middle class backgrounds. Joining the military is a means to provide support for their families and for their future etc. Children of immigrant backgrounds make up a percentage as well, given that it is one way in which they "prove" their citizenship etc.
But no matter how it begins the point is lives are lost, lives that are in their own way attempting to provide freedoms for us at home. Given, like I said there are other means in which we could provide these freedoms but until the government and for that matter the people of this nation decide how we go about this than we will continue to use the resources (i.e. people's lives) to do it.
Anyways, my blood boils when I hear these comments, although I understand the premise, I don't really follow.
And so a song to go with this, from the great MJ <3
This one put me in a good mood...
...BUT!!
Hey guys, so I am still not ready to venture deeper into the person that I am, not quite yet. So I am still doing my blogs through songs. Lol..
Anyways, I have this thing about songs and music videos needing to sort of flow together. I need the vision that I have when I see a song to be somewhat decently reproduced when I am watching the music video.
I saw the music video to this song before I heard the song for myself. And I LOVE the song, but I can't stand the music video. It makes no sense..
So here is the music video and then I will post the lyrics with more explanation as to what I like about it.
See the video to me just doesn't fit. I like the story on its own, but I really felt that the song deserved more than that.
So here are the lyrics that I love so much
[Drake]
I'm more than just an option
Hey, Hey, Hey
Refuse to be forgotten
Hey, Hey, Hey
I took a chance with my heart
Hey, Hey, Hey
And I feel it taking over
[Chorus]
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I bet if I give all my love
Then nothings gonna tear us apart
I’m more than just a number
Hey, Hey, Hey
I doubt you’ll find another
Hey, Hey, Hey
So every single summer
Hey, Hey, Hey
I be the one that you remember
[Chorus]
And I better find your lovin
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I bet if I give all my love,
Then nothings gonna tear us apart
It’s more than just a mission
Hey, Hey, Hey
You hear but you don’t listen
Hey, Hey, Hey
You better pay attention
Hey, Hey, Hey
And get what you been missing
[Chorus]
Too many times I’ve been wrong
I guess being right takes too long
I’m done waiting, theres nothing left to do
But give all I have to you and
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I bet if I give all my love,
Then nothings gonna tear us apart
I bet if I give all my love,
Then nothings gonna tear us apart
The part I love the most about this song is that opening " I'm more than just an option." That single handedly is like the best line of the whole song and possibly the best, most empowering line I have heard in this new age music that we have today. I mean really- I'm more than just an option YO, I'm it.. You don't have a choice when it comes to me, because as Drake goes on, I better find your love and I better find your heart... I bet if I give all of my love, then nothings gonna tear us apart DAMN!!! Lol.. You're used to hearing Drake rap, but this time he's singing and the lines are simple and sweet. Pretty much perfect, not your typical love song. I don't know about ya'll, but it doesn't take much for me to feel appreciated or loved, and this would do the trick.
LOVE IT...
anyways I'm out, well at least for now ;)
Hey guys, so I am still not ready to venture deeper into the person that I am, not quite yet. So I am still doing my blogs through songs. Lol..
Anyways, I have this thing about songs and music videos needing to sort of flow together. I need the vision that I have when I see a song to be somewhat decently reproduced when I am watching the music video.
I saw the music video to this song before I heard the song for myself. And I LOVE the song, but I can't stand the music video. It makes no sense..
So here is the music video and then I will post the lyrics with more explanation as to what I like about it.
See the video to me just doesn't fit. I like the story on its own, but I really felt that the song deserved more than that.
So here are the lyrics that I love so much
[Drake]
I'm more than just an option
Hey, Hey, Hey
Refuse to be forgotten
Hey, Hey, Hey
I took a chance with my heart
Hey, Hey, Hey
And I feel it taking over
[Chorus]
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I bet if I give all my love
Then nothings gonna tear us apart
I’m more than just a number
Hey, Hey, Hey
I doubt you’ll find another
Hey, Hey, Hey
So every single summer
Hey, Hey, Hey
I be the one that you remember
[Chorus]
And I better find your lovin
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I bet if I give all my love,
Then nothings gonna tear us apart
It’s more than just a mission
Hey, Hey, Hey
You hear but you don’t listen
Hey, Hey, Hey
You better pay attention
Hey, Hey, Hey
And get what you been missing
[Chorus]
Too many times I’ve been wrong
I guess being right takes too long
I’m done waiting, theres nothing left to do
But give all I have to you and
I better find your love and
I better find your heart
I better find your love and
I bet if I give all my love,
Then nothings gonna tear us apart
I bet if I give all my love,
Then nothings gonna tear us apart
The part I love the most about this song is that opening " I'm more than just an option." That single handedly is like the best line of the whole song and possibly the best, most empowering line I have heard in this new age music that we have today. I mean really- I'm more than just an option YO, I'm it.. You don't have a choice when it comes to me, because as Drake goes on, I better find your love and I better find your heart... I bet if I give all of my love, then nothings gonna tear us apart DAMN!!! Lol.. You're used to hearing Drake rap, but this time he's singing and the lines are simple and sweet. Pretty much perfect, not your typical love song. I don't know about ya'll, but it doesn't take much for me to feel appreciated or loved, and this would do the trick.
LOVE IT...
anyways I'm out, well at least for now ;)
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