All I can say is wow!!!

... and grab that Kleenex.. This song is amazing on two levels. 1) that a guy has enough in him to sing a song about the love of his life, but then 2) that this song represents not only love but honors the realtionships that our troops have. And it was done in such a classy way. Not to mention that Trey sings the heck out of this song as well..


I'm not doing lyrics to this song, because the importance is clearly the video itself...

Moral of the story.. Be true to yourself

I'm about to be 25 years old.. and I have learned that in my life I have tried to "hide" behind certain things in order to not really show my true self. But This song and heck this album, HUMAN by Brandy, is one of those albums that really heals you. I mean if you listen to the album from the first track to the last track you realize how much of your own life can be read through the words. What this song means for me is that at some point you have to accept the life you have been given, and you don't owe anyone else anything. The only person you have to be true to is yourself everyone else is secondary. I have a lot yet to tell about my life, but I am getting there.. Anyways, enjoy this song.


I´m a work in progress
I´m a seed growin' into a flower
I´m a storm that´s rising
I'm getting stronger with every hour
And God knows I ain´t perfect
Tell me who in the world is
All I know is that I´m searchin
For somebody to love me with

These flaws I´ve got
There apart of who I am
Take me or not
But I finally understand
I´m so done tryna to be
everything you want
And I had to stop
Cause baby you ain´t worth it
if I gotta Camouflage
For love, for love
No I won't Camouflage
For love, for love
I won't Camouflage

I need a lot of improvement
Not even half way to destiny
But I´m a train that´s moving
And everyday I´m picking up speed
And God knows you ain´t perfect
So who are you to put pressure on me
that´s why I´m still searchin
For somebody to love me with

These flaws I´ve got
There apart of who I am
Take me or not
but I finally understand
And I´m so done tryna to be
everything you want
[ Find more Lyrics on http://mp3lyrics.org/spBx ]
cause I had to stop
Because baby you ain´t worth it
if I gotta Camouflage
For love, for love
No I won't Camouflage
For love, for love
I won't Camouflage

I´ve learned from my mistakes
The only way you´re gonna be happy
Is if someone's down to take
you when it´s good and
it´s bad you see
I tried giving half of me
In the end I came up empty
And that´s why I´m searching yeah
For somebody to love me
with these flaws

These flaws I´ve got
There apart of who I am
Take me or not
But I finally understand
I´m so done tryna to be
everything you want
And I had to stop
Because baby you ain´t worth it
if I gotta to Camouflage
These flaws I´ve got
There apart of who I am
Take me or not
But I finally understand
I´m so done trying to be
everything you want
And I had to stop
Because baby you ain´t worth it
if I gotta to Camouflage
For love, for love
No I won't Camouflage
For love, for love
I won't Camouflage

If I gotta Camouflage

Cause baby you ain´t worth it
If I gotta camouflage
Baby you ain't worth it
If I gotta Camouflage

Can't believe I am about to write this....

Hey Ya'll so I am all for music and interesting music videos etc. But I am so torn with this music video and the lyrics, and I don't know why it disturbs me as much considering male musicians say stuff like this all the time and I don't even flinch.
But watching this made me want to confront some of my own issues I guess with the sexist world we tend to buy into and conform to.
I mean first let me go into the fact that Ci Ci goes from being moderately clad to scantily clad by the end of the video, and given she is wearing a HUGE fur coat but really, it doesn't take much to realize what is under there. Secondly, the very end after going through all this stuff, " They love the way I ride it," " I market it real good," etc there is Ci Ci on a mechanical bull with a barely there wet white tee-shirt and some booty shorts.
Now don't get me wrong when I first heard this song, I mean it's a good song, if you know what I mean... But then put this together with the music video and there are some issues that this stirs up in me. And yes I realize the double standard, and I am working through it.. I just needed to voice my opinion, I guess the main part of it, is that Ci Ci has been a little refreshing given that she hasn't had to do stuff like this so much, at least she's not doing it all at one time...
Needless to say there are many parts of this video that I love, like the fact that she evokes MJ through practically all of it, from the opening scene where she takes a bit from his " The Way you make me feel,"

Pay special attention when MJ and the male dancers start to move to the floor routine..

and where she (Ci Ci) just pulls a little bit of his most classic moves throughout out the video, here is MJ

Especially check the first like minute when MJ is in the gold outfit, tell me if that doesn't remind you of a little move Ci Ci does in here video?! I am a HUGE MJ fan and what made me loooooove this video is seeing him through her... You can't forget either his awesome finger tape that Ci Ci modify with her gold versions (picture is the main image of this blog)
Anyways despite my initial reaction to this video there is so much that I can see that saves this so. I guess thanks Ci Ci,for reminding me and allowing me to catch a glimpse of the amazing genius we lost and giving us a chance to see him again..

So here is Ci Ci's video, tell me what you think

Yo can I say thank you Chris Brown...

So your boy does it again.. Right now I am just in shock at this video so I will come back and comment on it later.

Song of the moment...

This song of the moment is brought to you by the boys from LMFAO. I fell in love with this group watching Real World Cancun and I love this song. Heard it on my iPod during it's shuffle mode.
I mean how can you hate on a guy saying that they " feel on top of the world," with you, " and that you are their new obssession." I mean obsession is a little creepy, but it's all out of love. And I think that's hot!!!
So here are the lyrics and here is the video. Enjoy!!


















La La La Lyrics
I feel like I just seen the sun for the first time
You make my life bright cuz you shine
It's me and you baby, it's our time
I'm living my dream, girl cuz you mine
You got me skippin down the street
And singin love songs all out of key
I didn't smoke nothin but I feel so high
And I know why
It's a love thing, it's got to be
Your heart's all locked and I got the key
It feels like I just won the lottery
Cuz I got my girl and she got me

You my new obsession
All I want to do
You my new obsession, girl
I feel on top of the world wit you baby
I want to dance and party tonight
I feel on top of the world wit my lady
I'm gonna rock your body all night
She makes me wanna sing

La, la la la (8x)

Oh, I can't get you out my mind
Everything you do is feelin right
Remember that way you caught my eye?
I remember that way you was walkin by
Ooh girl, watch out now
You looked at me, turned around and smiled
Gave me eyes, my heart went wild
Hypnotized, this love starts now
And how do I know you're real?
It really doesn't matter, it's the way I feel
You make me feel super like the man of steel
Got me goin stupid, pickin daffodils

You my new obsession
All I want to do
You my new obsession, girl
I feel on top of the world wit you baby
I want to dance and party tonight
I feel on top of the world wit my lady
I'm gonna rock your body all night
She makes me wanna sing

La, la la la... (etc.)

You my new obsession (5x)

All I want to do
You my new obsession, girl
I feel on top of the world wit you baby
I want to dance

Dance... (etc.)

I feel on top of the world wit you baby
I want to dance and party tonight
I feel on top of the world wit my lady
I'm gonna rock your body all night

Song of the morning...

So eventually I hope to actually start talking more in depth about myself. It's been a while since I have written about me in a journal or anything, and so immediately going to writing it for the world to see is somewhat nerve wracking.
I realize that this blog started off as a class project, hence all the multimedia posts etc, but now Keesha's World is literally about MY world.. So right now it's sort of easy to talk about my world through music until I am ready to really talk. So in the meantime here goes nothing. If you must know music is sort of my life.. I LOVE music! I mean I get that a lot of people LOVE music, but I LOVE it. If I could, I would try to produce one day or do entertainment law or PR for someone in the industry. If I could work for a big label that would be awesome. Anyways music speaks volumes to me, I listen to a song and it marks critical moments in my life.
This song was a song that got me through a crazy time in High School lol. First loves, etc. But the moment that this song sort of changed was when my once best friend heard it on my voice mail. Yes back in the day we recorded songs for our voice mail before that good ole callertune and ringback became the fashion. Anyways that old best friend of mine heard the song and was floored. The rif is beautiful and the combination of Monica and DMX was just a great one. This song didn't get much play, but if you found it you fell in love with it. The song is powerful too, I mean a little love triangle- DRAMA?! But it was more than that, there was intrigue and passion.
Needless to say, my old best friend and I are no longer friends. His doing... Don't ask because I don't even know what happened. He just sort of pushed me away, so that is hard to deal with. Oh here I go. Backstory.. I had the biggest school girl crush on him for the longest. When I first met him I was 15 years old, working at Chili's and he was what 18-19. Anyways when a person first starts working at Chili's especially hosts, they generally get pushed to the back burner.. Well let's just call him J, was really nice to me. I mean he used to joke with me at the host stand and was just nice. Then we became friends, love of music etc. He was an aspiring rapper, pretty good too. (Hence the music production thingy) He would take me out to his producer's house sometimes and it was just nice to hang around him. We were great friends I mean whether or not I was his best friend he definitely was mine! We talked about everything, he was my guy advice, which was weird. Saved me from fighting some people on more than one occasion. He was just a great peerson to be around. Then he quit working at Chili's. We didn't drift though, I mean we would meet up go out for lunch etc. In between that period though he started dating one of my good friends. Which killed me, there was a moment when I was pissed at her, which was weird not him. Me and her are cooler than ever though, J and I well that's another story. One day he just sort of fell off, stopped texting me, didn't return any calls. He would run into mutual friends and not think to call or ask how I was doing. I pleaded with him to figure out what was going on and he never responded. I moved to NY and tried to keep the door open, but that still didn't work. Which was tough, I really needed him when I moved to NY. Going through life changes, he had always wanted to head out to NY and there was a huge music scene that I was getting into. But he never responded. He ended up getting on FB, I sent him a tearful 3 page message and just told him that I am done. I used to send texts every year on his birthday- his birthday is coming up in July, but I have to stop it isn't easy being a friend to someone who doesn't respond or want to keep in touch. Anyways that is neither here nor there. This song just happens to remind me so much of him and our friendship. If one day J decides to hit me up, I will be there for him no questions asked. It just sucks losing people without knowing what you did. Especially when you have to hear about their life through the grapevine and when it used to be you getting the first call.

So here is the song : Monica featuring DMX " Don't gott go home". It was off of her After the Storm album, an album that came out of a realtionship she had where she watched her friend committ suicide. Interestingly enoguh (for lack of a better phrase) After the storm was not supposed to be the album that dropped that year. Monica had done some remakes of Michael Jackson songs that year- This album was highly anticipated for me! But I still love After the Storm








Don't Gotta Go Home"
(feat. DMX)

[DMX]
Aint no sense whining about it now
I mean we knew what it was when we became apart of it, feel me
{Monica}
Yeah
[DMX]
Its Like
[Monica]
There’s something on your mind, I can see right through you
I know your girl been treating you wrong
But she aint no good for you, why do u hold it inside
Boy you should let me know, I just want to make you right
Be the one you could cry on

[DMX]
Baby, its like, its like I love my wife
We going through things and I aint going home tonight
You got time for a nigga or is he still with you
Wanna meet at the same spot or should I come get you
I’ll be there in 10, be in the front
I been getting what I need so imma give you what you want
One on one cuz you know how to talk to dog
You walk the dog and understand that New York is hard

[Monica (DMX)]
You aint gotta go home tonight
You can stay right here with me (I aint goin nowhere when you wake up im gonna be right there)
Don’t you worry bout a thing (I aint worried about shit)
You’re here with me (Look its like I love my wife
We going through things and I aint going home tonight alright)

[Monica]
It’s kinda strange when you call she is never home
Now your there all alone and you deserve so much more
Baby, I can treat you better than she can
It doesn’t make sense to keep on loving and keep on trusting
When in return all you get is nothing

[DMX]
Damn, you got me fucked up and im feeling it more
Never had a mistress distressed before
Come on ma, like it aint that deep
Like there aint no love there like I don’t hate that I gotta creep
We go to sleep in each others arms
And I feel like this is where I belong
And if loving you is right then I aint wrong
This is the same ol’ song, wife and fam’
Gotta be a father and husband but I am still ya man
Baby

[Monica (DMX)]
You aint gotta go home tonight
You can stay right here with me (I aint goin nowhere when you wake up im gonna be right there)
Don’t you worry bout a thing (I aint worried about shit)
You’re here with me (Look its like I love my wife
We going through things and I aint going home tonight alright)

[Monica (DMX)]
This situation is getting critical (uh huh)
I watch so many tears fall (uh huh)
I know she not what you want
So why do u keep holding on
When im right here (What)
All you need to do is call (What)
Don’t be afraid cuz she wont know it

[Monica (DMX)]
You aint gotta go home tonight
You can stay right here with me (I aint goin nowhere when you wake up im gonna be right there)
Don’t you worry bout a thing (I aint worried about shit)
You’re here with me (Look its like I love my wife
We going through things and I aint going home tonight alright)

You aint gotta go home tonight
You can stay right here with me (I aint goin nowhere when you wake up im gonna be right there)
Don’t you worry bout a thing (I aint worried about shit)
You’re here with me (Look its like I love my wife
We going through things and I aint going home tonight alright)
Stay with me










Let me know what you think, I'm out...

In one of those moods this morning...

Ciara " My Love"

"My Love"[adlibs]
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh ooh oh oh huh huh
...Oh ooh oh oh huh huh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh ooh oh oh huh huh
Oh ooh oh oh huh huh

[verse I]
I ride like a soldier
Put nothing before ya
Anything you ask
I'll be right there to do it
But if I react you tell me to relax
Too late to take it back
Cause boy you put me through it

[pre hook]
This circular motion is all we do
I'm so sick of going back and forth with you
You should have been happy to have me
You said you wanted to have some kids build a family
(Now I)
Wish it wasn't true
It's killing me to do
What I gotta do
The problem here is you
Ain't nobody new not even my crew
Could take the place of you
The problem here is you

[hook]
*_Cause if you only knew what I felt for you
You would have held on tighter
Fought a little harder
Been a little smarter and now you're gonna miss my love
And one day soon you'll see
You'll reach out for me
Boy you had a keeper
Didn't know how to treat her
Should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love_*

[verse II]
Kick it with ya friends (go)
Go out with other chicks (go)
Be all up in the mix (go)
You got the right to do it
You wanna be a pimp
Be treated like a prince
Go 'head and click the switch
Cause now you got ya crown back

[pre hook]
This circular motion is all we do
I'm so sick of going back and forth with you
You should have been happy to have me
You said you wanted to have some kids build a family
(now I)
Wish it wasn't true
It's killing me to do
What I gotta do
The problem here is you
Ain't nobody new not even my crew
Could take the place of you
The problem here is you

[hook]
Cause if you only knew what I felt for you
You would have held on tighter
Fought a little harder
Been a little smarter and now you're gonna miss my love
And one day soon you'll see
You'll reach out for me
Boy you had a keeper
Didn't know how to treat her
Should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love

[breakdown]
My hugs (and)
My kisses
You know you're gonna miss it
And while you're tripping on the love we could have had
I'm moving on
I got to (and)
Ain't no looking back

[hook]
Cause if you only knew what I felt for you
You would have held on tighter
Fought a little harder
Been a little smarter and now you're gonna miss my love
And one day soon you'll see
You'll reach out for me
Boy you had a keeper
Didn't know how to treat her
Should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love
Boy you had a keeper, didn't know how to treat her
Should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love

[adlibs]
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh ooh oh oh huh huh
Oh ooh oh oh huh huh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh ooh oh oh huh huh
Oh ooh oh oh huh huh

See boy
You had a keeper
But you didn't know
How to treat her




So you maybe wondering why this song is on my blog. I don't know I heard it this morning during my iPod's shuffle and it put me in a mood. Especially the hook:
Cause if you only knew what I felt for you
You would have held on tighter
Fought a little harder
Been a little smarter and now you're gonna miss my love
And one day soon you'll see
You'll reach out for me
Boy you had a keeper
Didn't know how to treat her
Should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love
Boy you had a keeper, didn't know how to treat her
Should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love

I mean not to toot my own horn, buy I know I am a keeper ;) Lol, so when that time comes again for me to take the fall, I hope that it lasts this time. I am sort of tired of just catching glimpses, and then having someone tell me I'm the right one, when it's too late. If I have learned nothing in the 24 years that I have graced this earth- TIME IS MONEY. Speak what you have to when you have too, even if it is good, bad, or ugly. The truth hurts, but sometimes not speaking hurts more. Sadly, the pain of lost love also hurts and digs a little bit. But each day you get a little stronger right? Ugh, until then I'm not searching. I have to get more comfortable with me and maybe I'll find the one that truly KNOWS that I am a Keeper and will hold on a little tighter. In the meantime listening to this song is somewhat theraputic even though it stings ever so slightly