It's been hard trying to find the words to write to make sense of this crazy world we live in, to make sense of the life we live and the moments we share with others and by ourselves. Well where do I start. I fell in love, got my heart broken and now I'm putting back the pieces of my life. Can you really fall in love with a person who doesn't know it, and if they don't know it, can they really break your heart?
I turned 26! And in the last year I have been able to gather so much strength and courage to take my life back from situations I didn't think I would be able to. I fought back from the pained story of my past- a childhood abduction. I fought back from the broken marriage of my parents, the deaths of loved ones. My life is finally mine to claim, something that I get proud of more and more everyday. I love that I get to wake up in the morning with quite possibly the coolest person in the world- me! It took me a while to stand on my own, moving across the country from one of the only places I can truly call home. To starting school and doing this whole thing by myself, to helping to guide my family and friends through my love and through my life. I pushed through an earthquake which I owe so much for helping me to find my way back to a more solid me. I am thankful for meeting Rachel Nielsen, an amazing woman and friend who helped to guide me through my pain and find a strength that I knew was there, but didn't know was mine.
So here I am 26 and so happy to be alive. Here is to another 26 years of happiness and joy, and here is to at least another year of you all reading my notes to myself and getting a glimpse into my life. Lucas Scott on One Tree Hill once said- "Have you ever wondered what marks our time here? If one life can really make an impact on the world? Or if the choices we make matter? I believe they do. And I believe that one man can change many lives... for better or worse!" To be honest, I hope that my one life can really make an impact on the world... I don't do the things I do, or make the choices I make to better myself, I do them because I want the life I lead to make a difference for the young person who reads this blog, who has a story like mine and thinks they don't have the strength to continue to grow up. People, particularly my mother question my need to put my life out there for the world to see. But I stand true to this belief that my life's story is worth telling, that the mess that I have gone through, that the strength I have been able to find in the last few years has brought me to this place, not so that I could be timid, but so that I could actually make a difference for someone else. We only have this one life, at the end of it all I want people to look back on mine and be proud of the way I lived it. And to be better people because of it.
With love! Keesha
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